Somewhere in between

 At this point in my life, I have done a lot of self reflection on who I am and even though I still don't have it fully sorted out, there is this common theme I keep finding myself in. I am not typically one to stress over labels or identities because I hate being put into a box. I feel like it causes people to push these expectations onto who I am supposed to be and I hate that very much. However, I was thinking about what labels I would even identify with and Its hard to narrow that down because I am always "somewhere in between" either too much or not enough. for example, I was too tomboy as a kid to be friends with the girly girls and yet I was somehow too girly for the tomboys. I have always had this fluidity to my identity so now that I try to align myself with these labels of who I am, nothing seems to fit. This theme seems to follow further than just who I am as well, as a 24 year old, life is so weird. There are people around me who are getting engaged and buying houses with their advancing careers, or people having kids and living on their own with their significant others, and I'm not trying to compare my life to theirs because I love where I am right now but I feel like my life is in this weird space of wanting to be a kid and not knowing how to be an adult. These people around me know who they are and can define themselves so easily and on top of that, they seem to have this direction to life that I don't have. So either I have broken out of the matrix and am living freely on another level of consciousness or I really have no idea what I'm doing. Either way, I guess I'm just here along for the ride lol